I’ve decided I must seriously be messed up in the head. it’s the only way to explain the mental roadblock I’ve been having with the site recently. I mean, I know I haven’t been eating well enough to really lose much weight, but there are plenty of things I have been doing right.

I’ve been to the gym at least twice a week for a month now – I’ve actually been killing it on the stairmaster recently. I can run (or at least jog) over a mile now with no walking whatsoever. I’ve been lifting after every cardio session, and I can definitely see improvements in both how I look and feel. So why don’t I post about that? I even take pictures of the machines I’m working on with the intent of posting, but when I get home I seriously have some sort of odd aversion to sitting down and posting to the site.

Maybe it’s cus I’m not seeing results on the scale, so I feel like it’s all in vain? Maybe I’m afraid this is turning into just another failed attempt at losing weight? Maybe I’m just still lazier than I care to admit?

Honestly, I don’t know what it is, but I’d better figure it out, this is starting to piss me off.