“And then they stopped smiling. The corpse they saw in the weeds by the roadside was a rusty cylinder with bits of glass – the remnant of a gas-station pump.
It was the only thing left visible. The few charred posts, the slab of concrete and the sparkle of glass dust which had been a gas station – were swallowed in the brush, not to be noticed except by a careful glance, not to be seen at all in another year.
They looked away. They drove on, not wanting to know what else lay hidden under the miles of weeds. They felt the same wonder like a weight in the silence between them: wonder as to how much the weeds had swallowed and how fast.”
Measurements
Took these a couple of days ago (30 days from when I started) but just got around to posting them. Of note is the fact that I find myself rounding to the nearest 1/4 inch for each measurement – i.e. I lost a little more than a 1/4 inch off my waist, but not enough to legitimately claim 50.5 and I didn’t quite gain a full 1/4 inch on my biceps, but it was well more than an 1/8th beyond my previous measurements.
I’ve been eating like garbage lately. Usually I’d try and explain why, but I’m not sure that would help, so I’m gonna take some advice and just post the following:
I failed; I gave up. I’m going to start again, and not give up this time.
Today was an unmitigated disaster. Didn’t have anything to eat for breakfast, and then the VP of our department invites us all to go to 5 Guys since they’re new out here on the west coast and he hasn’t had them yet. I could have should have said no, but socially for work it wouldn’t have been the right move. Then, because they held us late here in the office, they offered to buy us Sea Casa. Instead of ordering something healthy, I used the fact that I’d already eaten a burger to tell myself it was just a ‘cheat’ day and ordered a California Burrito. I even snacked on the taquitos they ordered for everyone as the evening wore on.
What’s worse, is I didn’t get home until after 11 and was not about to start an hour and a half of Yoga X (my least favorite of the P90X routines).
In the old days I’d have told myself today was just unfortunate circumstances that were unavoidable, but the further along I get with eating a healthier diet, the more I realize things like that aren’t true. Had I prepared a lunch like I should have, I could have accepted the invite from our VP and brought something healthy, and it wouldn’t have been a problem. I definitely didn’t have to go off the deep end with Sea Casa. Missing Yoga may have actually been unavoidable, and I’m okay with that, cus I know I’m not trying to avoid it, but it means I better kick ass the rest of this week.
Ugh. I’ve not prepared anything for the week, thus the eating out for lunch and uninspired snack choice. I tried cooking for dinner after working out, but was in a rush to head out afterward and ended up dumping it all over the floor accidentally. Having already spent more time than I could spare trying to prepare it in the first place, and considering it was after 10pm, my food choices were very limited.
I ended up eating string cheese and a power bar I picked up at a liquor store down the street from where I was going, but it definitely wasn’t an ideal situation. I need to work up a couple of go to meals, or find something that fits my needs that’s frozen so I can just microwave it up in a pinch.
I need to not delay a day or two before posting my food, otherwise I might lose track of exactly what I ate and not have exact counts for the day – like I did this weekend.
Overall, I it was a mixed bag. Friday I was in a terrible mood and succumbed to a cheeseburger and fries at the local deli, but otherwise was on point with my eating. Saturday I did well, even resisting my typical habit of eating poorly when going out (the sips from Esther’s chocolate raspberry martini weren’t significant enough to count), but the Mojito afterward certainly wasn’t on the diet. Sunday I did well save for some fig newtons I munched on at Dad’s while working on some computer stuff.
The mojito and the burger are both acceptable in my mind – I’m not always going to eat great & sometimes you need to kick back with a drink – but the fig newtons (which calorie wise were the least of my transgressions) bother me because I snacked on them absent-mindedly. I’d probably had 3 or 4 of them before I realized I’d been taking in calories.
Still, considering I felt like an emotional wreck on Friday and had to resist the urge to just go nuts on cupcakes and cookies that were available here in the office, I’m okay with the way things played out.
I must eat better. I felt dead for legs and back today – alot more like I felt the first time around – and up until this point I’d been feeling really good for each workout. I can’t know if it’s just that I had an off day unless I’m getting proper nutrition and don’t have that to suspect as well.
Bought an inexpensive knee brace for Legs and Back tonight and it worked out alright. “One size fits all” apparently doesn’t fit my upper leg, so it was a somewhat uncomfortable, but a lot less so then the pain I’d have had in my knee without it.
Hurt my knee playing basketball today, so Yoga was a bitch. Most of the stances involving my right leg couldn’t be done properly, and almost everything I did was uncomfortable. I definitely need a brace before Legs & Back.
Wasn’t hungry for dinner again, although I kinda knew I wasn’t going to be and since I was doing Yoga so late I just mixed a more calorie heavy shake after my workout.
Woke up late, so it was a protein bar for breakfast. Lunch was Sea Casa, and though i had plenty of options that fit my diet, I decided to go with the California Burrito – which is like their normal burrito, only it also has fried potatoes in it. Fried Potatoes!. Seriously?? Sometimes I’m just too stupid for words.
