I created this site to hold myself publicly accountable for my weight loss. For far too long I’ve been half-heartedly trying to lose weight, with no clear goals other than not wanting to feel ashamed of how I look, and not wanting to let anyone know I was dieting, in case I failed. That ends today.
I intend to lose 115 pounds using only diet and exercise; no diet fads, miracle cures, or gimmicks. In order to keep me motivated and accountable, I will document the entire process here on My Wasted Life for all to see.
I’m going to lose this weight, and nothing is going to stop me.
Today was an unmitigated disaster. Didn’t have anything to eat for breakfast, and then the VP of our department invites us all to go to 5 Guys since they’re new out here on the west coast and he hasn’t had them yet. I could have should have said no, but socially for work it wouldn’t have been the right move. Then, because they held us late here in the office, they offered to buy us Sea Casa. Instead of ordering something healthy, I used the fact that I’d already eaten a burger to tell myself it was just a ‘cheat’ day and ordered a California Burrito. I even snacked on the taquitos they ordered for everyone as the evening wore on.
What’s worse, is I didn’t get home until after 11 and was not about to start an hour and a half of Yoga X (my least favorite of the P90X routines).
In the old days I’d have told myself today was just unfortunate circumstances that were unavoidable, but the further along I get with eating a healthier diet, the more I realize things like that aren’t true. Had I prepared a lunch like I should have, I could have accepted the invite from our VP and brought something healthy, and it wouldn’t have been a problem. I definitely didn’t have to go off the deep end with Sea Casa. Missing Yoga may have actually been unavoidable, and I’m okay with that, cus I know I’m not trying to avoid it, but it means I better kick ass the rest of this week.
Ugh. I’ve not prepared anything for the week, thus the eating out for lunch and uninspired snack choice. I tried cooking for dinner after working out, but was in a rush to head out afterward and ended up dumping it all over the floor accidentally. Having already spent more time than I could spare trying to prepare it in the first place, and considering it was after 10pm, my food choices were very limited.
I ended up eating string cheese and a power bar I picked up at a liquor store down the street from where I was going, but it definitely wasn’t an ideal situation. I need to work up a couple of go to meals, or find something that fits my needs that’s frozen so I can just microwave it up in a pinch.
I need to not delay a day or two before posting my food, otherwise I might lose track of exactly what I ate and not have exact counts for the day – like I did this weekend.
Overall, I it was a mixed bag. Friday I was in a terrible mood and succumbed to a cheeseburger and fries at the local deli, but otherwise was on point with my eating. Saturday I did well, even resisting my typical habit of eating poorly when going out (the sips from Esther’s chocolate raspberry martini weren’t significant enough to count), but the Mojito afterward certainly wasn’t on the diet. Sunday I did well save for some fig newtons I munched on at Dad’s while working on some computer stuff.
The mojito and the burger are both acceptable in my mind – I’m not always going to eat great & sometimes you need to kick back with a drink – but the fig newtons (which calorie wise were the least of my transgressions) bother me because I snacked on them absent-mindedly. I’d probably had 3 or 4 of them before I realized I’d been taking in calories.
Still, considering I felt like an emotional wreck on Friday and had to resist the urge to just go nuts on cupcakes and cookies that were available here in the office, I’m okay with the way things played out.
I must eat better. I felt dead for legs and back today – alot more like I felt the first time around – and up until this point I’d been feeling really good for each workout. I can’t know if it’s just that I had an off day unless I’m getting proper nutrition and don’t have that to suspect as well.
Bought an inexpensive knee brace for Legs and Back tonight and it worked out alright. “One size fits all” apparently doesn’t fit my upper leg, so it was a somewhat uncomfortable, but a lot less so then the pain I’d have had in my knee without it.
Hurt my knee playing basketball today, so Yoga was a bitch. Most of the stances involving my right leg couldn’t be done properly, and almost everything I did was uncomfortable. I definitely need a brace before Legs & Back.
Wasn’t hungry for dinner again, although I kinda knew I wasn’t going to be and since I was doing Yoga so late I just mixed a more calorie heavy shake after my workout.
Woke up late, so it was a protein bar for breakfast. Lunch was Sea Casa, and though i had plenty of options that fit my diet, I decided to go with the California Burrito – which is like their normal burrito, only it also has fried potatoes in it. Fried Potatoes!. Seriously?? Sometimes I’m just too stupid for words.
Went alittle overboard with the Olive Oil trying not to get the fish to stick (sue me, I’m still new at this). I didn’t actually intake all the oil that went into the pan, but not being able to quantify how much wasn’t in my meal means I have to count it all.
Last dinner with my brothers before they head back to their respective places of residence was also tonight at The Cheesecake Factory. The white chicken chili is a pretty good fit for me, and they actually can make it with brown rice now which was a plus.
I’m working hard to fit the p90x meal plan guidelines, even when I’m not using their specific recipes, although I know I’ve broken the carb limit a couple of times; since it seems I’m deviating from the structured meal plan in some way almost every day I’ll be interested to see how this all plays out.
I could not finish everything that was planned out for breakfast. I didn’t even finish all the eggs (though I can’t really quantify how many calories I didn’t eat so I’m just listing the full amount that was on the plate) and there was still supposed to be 12 (!) oz of cottage cheese on top of that. The more I try, the more I find it’s really, really difficult to eat 3,000 calories with healthy food.
Since I didn’t actually eat breakfast until about 11:30, lunch and dinner time sort of mixed together, and since I was out on the town with family and friends, I, yet again, found myself not eating the planned meals, but just trying to stick within the diet parameters. I did alright, but didn’t take in calories.
Two meals out in the same day is not something I plan on being normal activity during my p90x run, but it was necessary. I did okay, although I went over on the carb allowance in the day with the rice in the fajita platter. Otherwise my protein was more or less on point, and I didn’t take in too much bad fat, so I think I did okay.
We finally had someone come out to the house to fix our AC today, but it threw my whole schedule off – I didn’t end up eating lunch till almost 4, and that, in turn caused me to not be hungry at all for dinner. I know I need the calories to keep up with the workouts I’m doing, but in this case I figured skipping a meal was a lesser evil than eating at 11pm when I wasn’t really hungry and going to bed soon.
Also, since the dogs got a hold of my turkey jerky I didn’t have a high protein snack ready for today. I figured I’d order a turkey patty at Brent’s and that would suffice, and I swear I said turkey, but what I got was most definitely beef.
I also didn’t have time to prepare lunch for tomorrow, so again I’m left to wing it at a restaurant. I wonder if this weekend I could cook all my food for a month and just freeze it. Is that even possible with the stuff I’m eating?
